more distant, less affectionate, and definitely not normal. At least he’s getting some sleep, you think, but this relief is short-lived and it disappears when he begins to thrash around.ĭescription: bucky is acting…weird with you. You pass the island in the kitchen and smile sadly when you see Bucky sleeping, curled up on floor just as you’d suspected he’d be. He never flat-out admitted that nightmares were the cause of his sleepless nights, but after putting together the puzzle pieces of his sweat-soaked sheets, his tossing and turning, and his reluctance to talk about why he’d been sneaking out of your room most nights, you were able to figure it out for yourself. However, you couldn’t help but feel a sense of sadness and compassion over your boyfriend’s struggle to sleep as he forced himself to come face-to-face with the acts of violence he’d committed in his past.įor the past few weeks, Bucky had been transitioning to sleeping on the living room floor whenever he was kept awake due to nightmares. After everything he’s gone through in his life, and after everything he’s done to try and make amends with the people he’s hurt, you considered him to be the strongest person you’ve ever met. You knew for a fact that Bucky Barnes was not weak. Pity gives a connotation of weakness and sorrow on behalf of the weak. You know that Bucky’s been getting even less sleep, though, and the thought makes your heart clench in pity. The clock on the oven shows a bright green “3:28am,” and you sigh with the realization of how little sleep you’d been getting recently. Warnings: brief language, mentions of nightmares & violence, some angst i guess?Ī/n: this is set before the events of TFATWS - bucky is speaking to a therapist, but the events with the flag smashers and all that jazz have not yet occurred.ĭoes he really think I don’t know what he’s doing? you think to yourself as you make your way through the apartment you shared with Bucky. all you want to do is help him, but it’s hard when he denies the fact that he’s having these nightmares in the first place. i’m trying to get back into this blog as much as possible, and i appreciate those of you who are still here/those of you who are just joining me!ĭescription: bucky has been having nightmares recently. If anyone has any questions about me or my life or this blog that i have not addressed, feel free to submit those, too. i apologize if anyone has submitted a request that they haven’t seen yet, but feel free to re-submit it and it’ll be much more likely for me to see it since i won’t be wading through 700 messages! it’s very overwhelming for me to see that number, and it would take me quite literally forever to make my way through every single request, so deleting everything seems like the best option for me. I currently have over 700 asks/requests in my inbox, so i will be deleting these and starting fresh. i’ll be doing my best to post things semi-regularly, though. I’m now finishing up my junior year of college and will be starting my senior year in the fall, so i can’t promise how active i’ll be on this blog. i don’t have a great explanation for what happened/why i was gone for so long…i started college and a lot of my attention was drawn there and to my job. I (again) feel the need to apologize for my extremely extended absence (almost 3 years!). Hey everyone! as promised, here’s a bit of an update as to what this blog will look like going forward:
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